Two years later and....I still don't know what to think of you. You're a big reason why I bothered to change. Maybe not one of the people who motivated me to, but a motivator in a way. And. I just don't know what to say now that we're at the end of everything. Like we've pretty much said all we can to each other at this point as far as I can tell.
I still stand by it, too. You were right. I was wrong. I guess that's one of the real big things I took away from this.
I wish I had been a better friend to you. Like I had done what I could to help, but I don't think I really helped that much. Like helping doesn't come naturally to me or any of that crap. But it kind of...pissed me off to see how down you were on yourself. Like I wanted to say sad but it didn't really. It just made me angry to keep hearing you think you were some irredeemable piece of garbage for who knows what reason.
Dunno where you are now, but I guess I hope things are going better.
If there's anyone I really respect, or look at as a hero, it's you. I guess a lot of people probably see the bad in you but. I dunno. I kinda consider myself an expert on seeing the bad in people and I can't do anything but see the good in you. I dunno where things'll go for here but. I believe in you. Even if we don't meet again, I'll still believe in you.
It's been almost two years since you've been gone and every day I still wish you were here. I think I just want to know if we would have remained friends in the end, or what, since you were one of the first I had here. You'd probably make fun of me for saying I miss you but. I miss you.
Pokey Minch (Mayfield)
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I still stand by it, too. You were right. I was wrong. I guess that's one of the real big things I took away from this.
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Dunno where you are now, but I guess I hope things are going better.
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But I still hate you. Droning couldn't have happened to a nicer guy.
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I still don't believe that. And I still feel like I must have done something wrong for what happened.
It's alright. I know that you had to have had a good reason for it in the end.
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You're one of the people I'm going to miss most of all. And I don't even know how to say it.
Thanks. For showing me what friendship is.
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I love you.
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But I've just gotta make sure you don't be too much of a wuss. That's why I'm so hard on you.
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I failed you, in the end. I'm sorry.
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